At lunch I was planning on getting just an ice coffee with skim milk, no sugar. But then my friends were buying sushi. Before I knew it, i was eating avocado maki. But that's not even the worst of it.
After school I was at my friends house, and i had a bean burrito. With cheese. With sour cream. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
why am i so fucking weak??!?!?!?!
I know I should have purged, but I've never been able to. I don't think that I'm ready to meet Mia just yet. Ughhhh but i feel disgusting.
Today sucked. Of course ana was there the whole time, reminding me to not give in to the food, but I kept trying to push her to the back of my mind. Now shes pissed off at me, and I feel like total shit.
Tomorrow i will be better. Just studying all day, 'eating' when my mom happens to be out of the kitchen. I'll try to stick to veggy juice, water, and if desperately needed, a luna bar...........Dinner is still a hassle and an obstacle though.
On verra.
Love,
Elle
I love the feeling of hunger too :) It makes me feel accomplished. It makes me not eat because I don't want that feeling to go away. Oh, and if you're wondering, I found you through another blog. I'm a browser hah. (: But I like your blog. Starve on!
ReplyDeletexoxo kay